FiOne- God’s Freed One

Gateway Cities Youth Convention…though I’m not that old (only 25), but youth convention sounds abit kiddy for me. Well, there’s no more Youth Day holiday for me since I’m in poly mah. Haha.. Therefore, I often associate youth with secondary school people. But by divine intervention, I was there for the convention and I must thank God for it.
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1st night on 16th Aug: I remembered asking God how to praise Him in the mist of my mess at home & work. Was discouraged, more than just PMS. Nevertheless, I’m glad to be with my Chinese sisters. Seeing them touched in that 1st night. The vision 1 of them saw was an affirmation to the prompting I had regarding gift choices for them. Hallelujah~ The vision is great & I know it’s true. Praise the Lord!
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2nd night: I was still struggling to focus on Him & therefore impatient with even little things. Ultimately I knew nothing can be done if I don’t reconcile with the one I should. Asked God for strength to do so, because if I do, it will not be just FiOne doing it but God within her. FiOne will NOT want to do such a silly thing in the eyes of the world. But my God is God of reconciliation and I want to imitate Him. I want to please God.
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So with that little prayer that I’ll take the 1st step to talk to dad, God answered on the same night when I reached home! Basically I didn’t even do anything to initiate communication!!! Dad came to me instead and prepared the things that I don’t fancy doing. With that, we’re settled (at least in my heart). Tonight, 1st thing he said to me when I reached home after the convention "There’s durian". Yummy, was abit hungry as I didn’t eat much dinner due to tiredness. Hmm… my family’s common language of love is to ask one another to eat. So, yup, that’s how I know I’m loved by them.
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3rd day: It was eye-opener for me to see what’s God doing in the nations around Singapore! My heart had been zoomed in only to China all these years & it didn’t matter to me what happen anywhere else. God’s also doing MIGHTY works in the lands of our neighbours! Praise God! But as China (Beijing/Shanghai/Lanzhou) is presented, I felt God’s reminder so strongly that I prayed I’ll surrender to His will.

Tough, my tears rolled…
Tempted, my heart ravelled…
Thank-giving, my soul released…

For I shall not forget the God of my salvation, the Lord of ALL & the destiny He has given to me.

Praise God for answering my prayers that Ya Nan will be joining me in Chinese service tomorrow!!! Her heart is already opened, just need the final loving push of faith of the Holy Spirit.

As I remember some people in my prayers especially these few mornings, I’ll sms them. Today, I just thought of Yanan & sms her. She replied! And more to reply, she expressed interested in dining with me. Great~
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Long time since I last seen her in Canteen 2, with her boyfriend. Somehow I "melt" into the background while we lunch together. It’s this kinda time where 3 is a crowd. Haha… Wonder if they’re still together. Anyway she’s also interested to join me for church service too! Praise God! For the 1st time I thank God for FCBC youth service is at 1.30pm because she’s still living in hall. Otherwise, the long journey & early timing is such a turn-off (at least to lazy ple like me). Hoping she can join this Sunday due to the special combined service & I can intro her 2 other China sisters too. She needs to complete 3 essays this weekend….Aiyo~ God, help her to be efficient this weekend so that she can come!!!!!!! Otherwise it’ll be next Sun…
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Tomorrow going to ECP~ Lalalalalalalalala~ No hot nor wet weather~ Just nice for a cool relaxer~
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Question for the night:  When you’re talking on your handphone with someone, suddenly you receive a 2nd in-coming line from that same person’s home numbers? What will be your 1st reaction/ thought?

Strange seeing Minjuan & Xiangxiang in Singapore~ Usually I’ll see them when I flew to China, now it’s the opposite! God is good ah!!! @)– They sat >36hrs of train to catch an international flight from Guangzhou to Singapore. Goodness… Thank God for the journey mercy. I’m excited to play host, though they’re not staying at my place. Next time, next time when I’ve my own house. I cook, I clean & I promise to be home by 7pm everyday. (sounds familiar? haha)
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We had a welcome dinner at Shore Restaurant (NSRCC, Tanah Merah). Despite the bloatedness & plan not to take food, I took prawn & crab. hahah… ya, then Eric, Arlene & Koon Min mentioned I’m back to normal tonight. I was terrible on Sunday & Monday… I’m like what they said: Zi Bao Zi Qi. ok ok, PMS can??? I also know it’s a superb bad one. Haven’t feel so bad for quite some times, especially over no big deal. Small things were enough to irritate me. :i Then some people, for no good reasons, kena minus points. Hallelujah, it’s over~ So add back the points. In fact I added more, over the rOOf tOp. ;P
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I look forward to bringing them to my favourite place in Singapore on Thursday- The East Coast Park!!! I grew up there.. the chalets (from pre-school till I’m secondary school student. what’s Downtown East??? lose, man..lose big time to ECP :p), playing of water & sand, cycling, blading, strolling, picnicing, kopi-ing, makan-ing, playing of games, nua-ing… It’s a lovely place to me & they like beaches too! Since there’s none at their homes. Lao Pa, grant us good weather with no rain & lots of clouds to shield us from harmful UV rays!
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I’ve nothing much to offer my 2 sisters from China. TG they lack nothing in Christ! I just want to spend time with them before they flew next Monday… It reminds me of 2003 where I can’t go for China trip because of SARS. Instead, I had the opportunity to take part in SM2 Befriending programme by TOUCH. It’s really like "I cant go China, China’ll come to me" type of feeling. Same feeling tonight. Wah, bought the latest Streams of Praise CD for 1 of them. I see already, I think I also like it myself. Packaging is sOoOOO pretty~ Oops, haven’t listen to their new songs yet mah. But should be nice.
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Wonder how is the Gateway Cities Youth Convention all about. MJ & XX are presenting their cities too! Hope it’s on the night when I can be around. Let this be a fruitful trip for them, personally. Bring them a step closer to Your heart, Lord. Just a step closer everyday, like how You grant us our daily bread.

Wonder what should I call this day…

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Met up NTU gang for our end-Sep, 8-day Taiwan trip itinerary discussion.. Yes, finally we’re really set to go after 1 year of graduation. Hahaa.. Hoping to see Chih Hsin & Echo in Taiwan too! Also been 1 year since we parted at Clarke Quay MRT after our frog leg porridge and Hagen Daz ice cream.
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Thereafter, I met up with Lawrence before he flew off today midnight. Wonder how would I feel if I were in his shoes, to be alone in foreign land. Bored? Think alot of things needs to start afresh. New living condition & new relationships. I used to cheer at the thought of leaving Singapore for another country, not to stay long.. perhaps few years. Just for fun & experience. But as I grow older, more (stronger) ties are built in Singapore, many things of concerned which I would like to attend to personally. So making me feeling abit harder to move out of comfort zone. Well, if God’s clear, then Holy Spirit help me to have faith then.
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Ultimately, all my meetings were located near Esplanade area BECAUSE FIREWORK WAS @ 9PM! Was alone for 1.5 hour since 7pm but didn’t feel lonely. Probably excited over the thrill later. Perhaps I’m aware that God’s so close to me. Or maybe I’m pre-occupied smsing with my sister, sharing God’s word with her. Browsed some books in library too.
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At 8pm, I decided to "chop" a good view placing at ground floor. TG there’s really one despite the crowd! In the mist of waiting, my HP batt’s running low (must be the smsing). I was thinking - not now because I might be meeting somebody (probably a group) & still need to communicate! Nonetheless it did survive right up to when I’m home @ 12am. Don’t need to say how I save the battery life.
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Ya, did met the one I’m supposed to meet. But I met someone else before him, which’s out of my plan - Cheryl, Jeremy’s student. She’s also as crazy as I, to watch fireworks alone (Ah-hm, yes I’m prepared to watch alone. but his presence was a bonus). Catch up with her more. Wonder what’s God’s plan for her…especially after Abi & Jer fly to China for 2 years.
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OK ok.. people must be quite curious about who’s the " him " that’s a bonus.. Hahaa..

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DON’T TELL YOU~

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So Kapoh for what???

22nd day of my 25th years on earth. Funny to hear from fitness trainer this morning that I’m under weight by 5kg yet still got more fats than ideals, need more muscles.. haha. Think it’s their way to make me sign up for membership.. haha. But i find it ex. See how…

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work is stressful, scare i’ll cause the company to lose $ becos of my inexperience & carelessness. stress stress stress, this Wed I’ve to give "lecture" on Email, Listening Skills and Tel Skills to some of my dept’s people during lunch hours… I find it’s more of a refresher course for them who have already been working for quite some time. wonder how to keep them interested for 1.5 hours… God~ give me wisdom!!!

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still doing the 100k blessings & God graciously brought people across my path for me to share this National Day blessing project. Thank God for answering answered prayers for these people.

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Jesus, You’re the best thing that has happened to me. Again I say, I don’t know where will I be - physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. Really really really appreciate You & Your work on the cross. Those scars, they should be mine. Those insults, they should be mine. Those moments of separation from God, they should be mine. But Your unconditional sacrifice makes me realise how precious I am to You. That even before I acknowledge You, You’ve already died for me. This is LOVE.

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1 John 4:16b  "God is love"

3th day into my 25th years on earth. My mind is subconsciously keeping itself blank now because there’re couple of things I haven’t sort them out with God. To think about such issues makes me tired…so tired that I will hope to procrastinate facing them. Find it tough to do the best thing now yet to totally avoid them is just as tough. I know God doesn’t want me to wait a moment longer… but His love never force me to do something I don’t want, He gently wait for me to respond.

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Sometimes I’m like that.. like the Chinese saying that goes "don’t drop a tear till you see the coffin".. Hope I don’t need to wait till then. Ok ok, let me go & draw mind-maps now. Hahaa…

while on my way home after work, i sms my 1st sister who’s also now my fellow sister-in-Christ about something exciting happening in my life. my motive is to motivate her to pray more & together see how God works when we pray in agreement. i was so touched (am still!) when i saw her reply- "OH! U’ll be blessed with a gd Mr. Right & R’ship. God is always there to give u what’s best. I will also pray for u! 加油!" Wah, my tears nearly flowed out when i was walking out of Yishun Mrt station. barely a week old Christian can have such Godly insights on His goodness! Amen! i’m visiting her church on 17th. Was still worrying over is she properly followed up after her salvation. Think I just have to do my part to pray, encourage & trust God.

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anyway, it’s relaxing day for me. met my 2nd sister who’s back home after her work, while i was going out for a morning swim. she wanted to join me but in the end decided to rest after the long night’s work. 2-hr of swim prepared me for the upcoming 3 "races" for the buses. think add the distances together, there’s 200m! long time never chase buses liao. hahaa.. TG for the driver-uncles for waited for me too. then i went groceries-shopping for Fri’s lunch ingredients… tomorrow needs to go marketing for fresh stuff. gotta enjoy these moments now as i’ll not have such privilege once i start my new job next monday. it’ll be another chapter of excitement~

PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD! My 1st sister received Christ @ a KL retreat with her colleague! She can even speak in tongues! Hallelujah! Holy Spirit, seal this seed of faith in her heart that no devil can rob. Free her to be Your daughter of love because You’re the Father of Love. Thank you for her salvation. Make her assuredly Yours. It is the 2nd salvation in my family since 6 years ago where I was the 1st. Err..actually my 2nd sister was 1st but backslided..

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I was overjoyed when she told me during yesterday’s shifting of house. My mouth simply couldn’t close due to smiling Thank God for my cg bros & sis who helped & sweated over my shifting yesterday too. And bro-in-law, nephew, nieces, cousin & mom. Took 4 hours from 3-7pm, double of what I expected.

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Thank God we decided to attend Chinese service instead of Youth service. Chinese service was good, though the songs were new to me as I haven’t go Chinese service for quite some time. Was thankful for His love & sacrifice for me & my family. When Ps Khong asked those whose family members came to know Christ after them, to raise their hands, I also wanted to raise mine! I WANT I WANT I WANT! and now I CAN I CAN I CAN!!! Glory to Him~ Amen~ Only He can turn hearts back to Him at His perfect timing. I was still worried & praying for her after hearing some bad news about her. Yet God turn things around for His glory.

i forgot to keep it into my bag after happily tkg pic with students on Wed as it was my last lesson with them. left it on teacher’s table in the classroom & rush off for next class to conduct mock test lor… only at night when i’m home, then i realised it’s nowhere to be found. i quickly smsed my student Belinda to ask her if she can help me check for it in the classroom. she knows how my camera looks like since we’re both trying to adjust our cameras for photo-tkg. anyway i know she lives near school, so less hassle to travel. TG she gladly agreed to help on Fri before her 9am class.. anyway i prayed for angel to guard it from thieves… i’m prepared to lose it but not the memory card! i just took pictures with my students and haven’t even downloaded them!!!!!!!!

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following day was Vesak Day & i shared that with my cg. Florence offered to look for it as she usually reaches ITE at 7+am. Great! even earlier than 9am.

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but this morning, Florence smsed me at 7+am that it’s lost. lying on bed & trying to still give thks for me losing my camera in ITE (somehow i still believe it’ll be found after prayin) and also Sa Jiao abit to God (something i didn’t do looooong ago) as to why it’s lost… then got back to sleep again. As i made my way to school, i’m still thinking "God, i’ve found a thumbdrive 2x & returned it to the owners 2x leh. why no one return my camera to me…" so typical human-thinking also don’t know..haaha~ Then almost instantly, i had the answer that it’s because i’ve decided to return it on my own account, & if those times i didn’t ask for anything back in return, why should i now? hahaa… it’s like the workers & wages parable. When i reached school, a teacher asked if i’ve left something. GREAT!!! i estastically explained the situation & by afternoon, the camera was in my hands again!

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TG for answering prayers once again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not that fast-food restaurant BK. it’s my new residential place with my own room~ i’m here to test out the M1 broadband today… speed quite alright, good for $38 everywhere. TG for that & of course the person who lent me his device to try out before signing up.

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well, feel more at ease & sense of ownership here in BK. gd for a start. wah, got aircon too~ didn’t realise till i lied down on the floor for a rest after all the cleaning up. my feet were black before i mopped!!! now is shiny clean~

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i realise got echo when i sing..haha..cos the room’s empty. guess what tune kept playing in my mind while i’m packing & cleaning? Teresa Teng’s Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin~ HAhahaa… Don’t ask me why, i just sang it but with different tune. will be shifting furniture on this Sunday. Thanks for the many helping hand from church too. what can i do without them???

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wah, it just feel good to be alone at home. real home this time. thank God for His blessings & more is to come so that my family’ll see His greatness. my duty is to pray pray & pray.

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decided to listen to Ps Benny Ho’s sermon on My Life Partner.. still laughed at some of his illustrations & jokes. towards the end, i just cried a tear of thankgiving to God for 1st saving me. i could not imagine where will i be, if not for Him. Really. my salvation keeps me in this faith whenever i feel like giving up due to (emotional) hardships. but apart from Him, who else is truly good to me? like it or not, humans are self-centred creatures, at least in 1 moment or another. to think that God uses 6 years to heal me of past wounds and to prepare me for the future relationship, is mind-blowing for me. as i looked back, it was a good 6-year.