good sleep
hey hey~ Molly’s also my sister now! PTL! but liyan yet to make the final decision, i believe it’s a matter of time only. she already believes! just like me in 2001, i believe but yet to say the prayer.
reading "Reaching for the Invisible God" this morning after i woke up. actually i slept at 12am & did wake up at 8am (good 8hr sleep) but lazily went back to sleep till 1030am. should have woke at 8am because i felt good then. no (terrible) dream, just good complete rest throughout (no going to loo in middle of night despite me drinking a cup of water). when was the last last such good rest i’ve at night???
ok, back to that book. one thing stuck me for sure: God look forward while we look backward. whenever bad thing happens, we tend to ask "Why" questions while God planned to do something good out of it. we want clarity; God wants our trust in Him.
too often in the past, i’ve been a "backward" looking person, reliving certain memories in my head & heart. this’s quite dangerous because i’ll then conclude the past’s better than present & then waste my "present" too. even if certain pasts are unhappiness, my next thoughts would then be "it’ll be so good to be able to go back in time to change that". this way of thinking too prevents me from focusing on the present. well, the current "me" is getting better. no, this’s not self-praise. it’s an honour i want to give to God. of course i’m not perfect & He still has to work very hard to continuously challenge my thinking and transform my life. ok, the next "Why" question is: Why doesn’t He do it in an instant? the only reason that i can think of is: the transformation in me is more impressive than if i had suddenly gained perfection.
so i can start singing 1 Corithians 13:4-8 song
“爱 是 恒 久 忍 耐 ，又 有 恩 慈 ；
爱 是 不 嫉 妒 ；
爱 是 不 自 夸 ，不 张 狂 ，
不 做 害 羞 的 事 ，
不 求 自 己 的 益 处 ，不 轻 易 发 怒 ，
不 计 算 人 的 恶 ，
不 喜 欢 不 义 ，只 喜 欢 真 理 ；
凡 事 包 容 ，凡 事 相 信 ，凡 事 盼 望 ，
凡 事 忍 耐 。
爱 是 永 不 止 息 !”
