暧昧
wa! heard this song from Campus Superstar’s hot favourite’s mouth & thought it’s a very nice song! then learnt it’s originally sung by that Kawaii Taiwanese girl. Didn’t know she has such nice songs. Not that she really sings very well, but the song itself is good. 
long time no sing new Chinese pop songs… hahha. next time ktv must sing this song…er…but when am i going???
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Still left think right think about my career options. sigh… once again i’m at the crossroad i faced 3 years ago. dear dear… how? suddenly i asked myself what am i created for? (hmm, after very long time, cg’s continuing Purpose-driven Life this week again. haven’t grown to love that book though) after writing my diary and talking to God just now, suddenly i had this question popped up in my head: how do i know Jesus is the real God? after a few seconds, i have the answer too: by faith and faith is by hearing the word of God. Life is a gamble & i’ve chosen and will still choose Jesus everyday. just that living in this world makes me & my thinking/ learning complicated. God and this fallen world operate in opposite directions most of the time. well, in this world, people remember sad songs easier but in God, praise & worship dominates!!!
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i need to decide who to please with my thinking, words and actions. Wow~ gotta presevere. then i opened my bible & read James 4:11 "…blessed are those who have presevered". i want to be blessed and i want a new beginning everyday with Jesus. i’m freed, free to do what’s right even after I’ve messed up-again. huh, isn’t this situation of ‘being in the world but not of the world’ similar to the song 暧昧? the song tells of ‘being in the situation of beyond friendship but not yet lovers’… the in-between feeling.
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1st month of breaking down has just over, the devil’s working so hard that i couldn’t believe! but i know God’s doing better and will do more in this heart of mine. i’ve given my heart for a bgr to Him long ago, perhaps i should consider giving Him my heart for knowing Him & me too.
