I, Important?
Yes, FYP’s over now. Just need to wait for final edition before it’s officially finished. 
TG that it’s done.
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TG that i went Post Encounter yesterday despite the flu i’m having. struggled to get out of bed (of course) but i sensed the gentle urging of HS telling me to go & be blessed. if i could only identify 1 blessing that morning, it’ll be this: I realise my struggle to be accepted as important. a brother’s words set me thinking again, "why me? what have i contribute to our fellowship?" often, i don’t feel that my existence’ll make a difference. there’s so many souls out that like me… don’t need to mention about looks because i already know i look like this this this, that that that person… haha. i’m like the beggar in the crowd that surround Jesus. no one notice except Jesus. isn’t it puzzling???
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Till worship in afternoon service, i’m still wondering about this issue. yet the lyrics again & again spoke about the glory of Him & took my focus off myself, which i’m glad. unto Him who’s worthy & deserving of all praises. so glad to be able to worship as usual. slowly i began to realise i’m important to God! so important that He’s mindful of me all the time, taking time & effort to prune me when He could jolly well do many other things on earth & heaven. but it’s me He looks upon & mold me daily into His characters. often this journey can be tough & trying, leading me to feel terrible & tiny about myself but He’s….
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my Shield (from false accusations), my Strength (to finish this race)
My Portion (my destiny in God), Delieverer (from sins)
My Shelter (from harsh weathers), Strong Tower (of refuge)
My very Presence Help in times of need.
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but my God’s a God of Abundance!!! so 1 blessing from Him seemed to undermine His power. What can i ask of You, God that You’ll freely give? #1 on my list is Love (aka God Himself). As i asked of more of You to fill me during worship, i saw this picture again- the picture of You, as a Father embracing me by the beach. HEY, this venue’s the same as the one He showed me during my 1st Encounter Weekend’s session of "Father’s love". how long ago was that? that’s during my 20th birthday~ dear, almost 4 years! but it remains as 1 of the most beautiful moments/ picture/ mental movies that i ever had from God.
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The heavenly Father’s arms never tire of holding His children.
