why am I sulking tonight?
don’t know leh.. this’s the most irritating part. because I don’t like to be kept in the dark, I want to know what’s happening. but sometimes I just don’t know what causes my sulking emotions or sometimes I don’t have the patience to ask/think myself. it’s like playing squash alone.. hitting within the walls and hitting myself. then I’ll feel why am I so dumb?!?! no answer to my cause, so I’m like very dumb. i’ve given up the use of "stupid" long ago because it sounds too degrading. perhaps while we want answers to our troubles, God want only faith in Him. and this kind of faith can only exist when relationship exists.
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some people say the emotion roller coaster’s a female thingy. i don’t want… why must I be controlled by my extreme emotions? why can’t i control them if they belong to me?
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sigh……………………….. what’s so good about being fallen man? (arhem, who say fallen man’s good in the 1st place?) All need Jesus. None can escape. All will bow at His majesty. None can stand in His Holiness. All will confess His name. None can live in burning sulfur. but not All love God.
