FiOne- God’s Freed One

Yea..Must be quite free that I’m here again to blog. Feel very distracted nowadays, everything also not interested. Pretty much like the "ostrich strategy" of not wanting to know the truth because once I know the real situation, I’ll feel helpless. Of course this’s not true as I’ve a Mighty God who can and will answer prayers. Family has one issue after another, which I feel "why again..? why I gotta pray again? when can I stop praying for them?" Issue may not reach the state of hopelessness but even small things can grow into big ones. Which’s actually why I’m paranoid over. Haahaa..

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But thanks be to God who’s ever patient with me. Today I hear a good news! My nephew has changed for the better! He’s actually a good boy, precious to the family. It’s because of the bad company he used to mix with, he started to do rebellious things like play truant, ran away from home for almost a week etc, piercings.. At least now he’s studying for exams though it’s a bit too late. But God’s a God of Miracles!!! That gives me another reason to pray for him! I always remembered the day (after PSLE sch placement) my nephew called me to tell me that Xinmin Sec has accepted him! It’s a prayer answered since his marks wouldn’t allow him to enter into XMSS. I prayed openly with him at ECP, telling him to leave that to God because He loves him.

Boring night..but it’s precisely this alone-ness I sometimes enjoy. The quietness at home with worship music now. Well, time alone can be testing too… But thank God whenever I choose to turn to Him, He’s there to help. I’ve learnt not to give in to my weakness because I don’t want to hurt Him that way and later no face to turn to Him again. Hahaa.. so typical of man.

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17th Nov is my last day at my company. Looking forward to the next, which I don’t know when to come. Or rather I don’t know how to describe what I like. I like my current job scope with much coordination work (except the sales part). Also eyeing that *** job. Think I can be too single-minded that I don’t want to apply for the next till I’m confirmed rejected by ***. HAHA~ Ah Pa, I want… though I know I can’t sleep till 7.30am if I got that job. But that’s not the point~ It’s quite my idea to work in that related field. World-class~

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Meanwhile, ORD mode at work but am trying to be extra nice to everyone (even towards those whom most loathe). I’ll "Behold the King" each time temptation comes… I’ll refocus on Jesus, the Perfector of my faith and life. But I really can’t stand the lady who smokes in the toilet!!! Make me smelly each time I left it. Yuck~~~ I wanna complain!!!

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Last major event of 2006 is Dec China trip. Going twice a year is out of the norm for me and financially challenging too. VERY VERY VERY. But once again, I want to use eyes of faith to look beyond what I’ve and look into what Ah Pa has!!! He’s so RICH!!! What’s the $1000 odd to Him if He meant for me to gooOOO?