FiOne- God’s Freed One

After a terrible physical fall (pls refer to picture in Home) and flu relapse, I thought that’s all for the so-called "attacks". Though my moods aren’t that great nowadays, at least most things and loved ones are still ok. My ankles and bones are still in-tact too, despite the fall.
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Same old slippery slope down the "Skip QT" side and listening to the wrong voice which eventually birth into sin-committing: Disobedience to the Right One. Immediate outcome: Guilt-stricken in the weak one. Didn’t want to be a hypocrite and worship in service but went anyway. The loud music didn’t help and the pastor’s words didn’t hit. I just wanted peace which was nowhere to be found in the house of God. Knew I need to repent and receive forgiveness but the same old stubborn kid within refused to receive forgiveness that easily. Law says I ought to be punish for the sin committed; Self-righteousness says I ought to feel guilty for long and do many good works in order to earn back my place in heaven.
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But Holy Spirit showed me the cross that hung Jesus and that says it’s finished. Right after my disobedience, God bought me to the church service the same fateful day to remind me of who He is. His names are many but today I know Him as Mercy. I ought to be zapped but He didn’t. So I should show mercy to myself and people around. I’m humbled indeed. I received His forgiveness again, in full. Holy Spirit is quite cute at times, He told me to give myself a pat on my shoulder and said "It’s ok, it’s over". I did, more than once. "Beat" myself back to spirit mah.
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I heard a news after that. Timing was just nice. If it were before my disobedience, I might have seen it in a different light. But as a newly-forgiven sinner, it’s no surprise how easily Christians can sin too. Well, it seems that the God whom they trust doesn’t help in times of needs…If not, why didn’t He intervene? Right from the start, in the Garden of Eden? Because of Choices. God gives us free will to make decisions for ourselves. Though there’re times I make wrong ones and "fail" the tests, but He will never leave nor forsake me. Because that’s the meaning of Love. Love never fails… It hopes and it endures (1 Cor 13:7-8).

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What else do you need, FiOne?